It’s that time of year where most of us lament about how hard this past year was. Real talk: That drives me nuts. Every year the same people post about what a shitty year 2019, 2018, 2017, etc. was. To say an entire year sucked and that there were no lessons in that year seems like a cop-out. It’s easy to complain and find the bad in the whole year and just blame the year and walk away. So very easy.
For me, this year was extremely challenging. However, that was a lot of great things that came out of it. I cannot describe 2019 as terrible or a “dumpster fire” that everyone seems to be attaching to it. I struggled a lot this year with work and trying to decide what is next for me in my career, I struggled with working full-time, coaching volleyball, and going to school full-time all while planning a wedding. There were tears and emotional breaks, but overall the reality is that I had a job, I had the opportunity to work on my master’s, I coached some really amazing girls, and I got to marry my best friend.
Yes, there were tears, but so many great things came out of it. Best of all I did it, I made it through the year and accomplished a lot.
On Saturday night, I listened to the Yoga Girl podcast. Her latest podcast is an intention setting ceremony for 2020. It takes about 2 hours, more if you have a lot to write, but I highly recommend it. It was a grounding experience and let me reflect on 2019 and, more importantly, set my intention for 2020.
I know that this year I did not take care of myself as much as I should. I was burning the candle at both ends, 90% of 2019. I was mindlessly eating, not working out as much as I know I need and want, was overly absorbed in mindless scrolling on my phone, watched a lot of mindless TV. So my intention for this year is to live more mindfully. Listening to my body, listening to my heart, and doing what is best for my whole self. Recognizing when I’m eating something if it is out of boredom or if it is something that will indeed have a lasting impact on my wellbeing. Acknowledging that I’m picking up my phone and scrolling to avoid things and distract myself instead of picking it up and calling someone I am thinking about. Understand why and where I’m spending money and if it is necessary.
I need to hit pause and think about my actions and words, both on myself and the people around me.
I need and want to be more mindful in 2020 in every aspect of my life. So with that, I’m releasing 2019 and thanking the year for all the lessons and am welcoming 2020 and all it has in store!
I’d love to hear your intentions for 2020! Send me a message or comment below!
I am a 5th grade teacher and writer. Contributor at Bolde.com